New beginnings.

I am officially a worker now! I work for the government and I will be paid by them.(hopefully soon)
It´s so amazing how time goes by fast! Just five years ago I was nervous and excited  that I was going to university and a few years by I am already done.
Last week as I was driving to work, I could't help but observe the new students who were walking on the campus all confused but full of energy for their task ahead. Then, I realized that was me a few months back. It hit me ...A few years ago I was  ; a  university student, an annoyed adolescent, a cute toddler  and a baby. Life goes really fast!
My time schedule has changed, my attitude has changed even my dress style has changed. And the latter is what has affected me most. I used to just tumble out of bed, shower, pick up a shirt, a pair of jeans and a nice pair of sandals, Now, I have to put more effort into dressing. My jeans have been substituted for skirts and it has been a re-orientaion. I am a lady alright and I love dresses and skirts but I never saw myself wearing them five days in a week. Oh well....
Also, my teaching audience has changed it no longer little children but young adults. So I guess there will be a different type of challenge but hopefully the experience I have will direct me.
 On top of that I have started driving. Sometimes as I sit in my car driving I just thank God and laugh at myself. I never thought I would be a fearless driver able to drive myself and others places but here I am now.
This year has been a year of 'firsts' and I feel really blessed. There is more to come for me and I hope so for you too.
This verse comes to mind as I write. Think about it,'now'is only a few seconds behind of 'tommorow' and few seconds ahead of 'yesterday'.

James 4:14
Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.

I am greatful in spite of...

1. The Ghanaian football team unpatriotism and lack of profesionalism in the world Cup
2. Increase in price commodities in Ghana
3. Fuel Shortage in Ghana
4. Our unforgiving scorching sun
5. Constant light outs

Because, I have others things to be thankful for; I am alive, my family is fine.

1. I am finally driving!! Got my license and a car :)
2. I am back with George(Dont ask how it happened ;))
3. I'll be moving to my new room...cant wait to re-decorate...
4. I am a graduate!! Done with University!!
5. My birthday is around the corner....
6. My favourite cousin just got engaged
7. My second favourite cousin just got a baby boy :)

So..... decided today to create a happiness jar that will remind me of all that made me happy and will cheer me up whenever I get sad.You will just need an old jar and little strips of paper on which you can write quotes or happy experiences you have lived.

Here are some pictures that could inspire you
https://www.google.com/search?q=happiness+jar+decorations&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ei=GOWyU_u4IKuT0AXGmYCwBw&ved=0CAYQ_AUoAQ&biw=1366&bih=631

Late night Musings

Normally think a lot when about to sleep, can have the deepest conversations with myself or God before sleeping. So I keep a book close by, thought I should share my latest thoughts. I kid you not I wrote all this in less than an hour :)

Every single step we make fits into his perfect jigsaw puzzle even our failures and mishaps. We might take a detour and go another direction but end on the first step back to His recovery plan. The master gamer from on high sees our past and future and only He knows the end result. We down below limited in our vision may fret, but we fret for nothing.
I have always been in love, in love with the unknown. . The great mysterious one who spins things in orbit, wakes up the lillies in the morning and causes the moon and stars to shine at night.
How could one listen to a melody and not experience endless joy?
How could one stare at a baby's laughing face and not fall inlove?

Humans must have been created to love. And, if that is the case then we must have been created by someone who has that essence or is that essence.
It is said a novel always has a trace of it's author thus, humans have traits of their creator. I belive that creator is God.
Nothing creates nothing, whereas, something can create something.
We say matter cannot be created or destroyed and that is just energy.That is why water can turn into ice and then gas.
Humans also will turn into ashes when they die becauses they came from ashes. We return to our old state.
He who is transcendent, omnipotent and omniscient is God. There can be no theory or scientific experiment to define this uncertainty. The uncertainty is what makes him God.
One thing we know is that God is love. This explains how it is difficult to explain it, express it or even let it go.
How can we describe this phenomenom? The bible says it is Patient, Kind, Not Envious, it does Not Boast
, it is Not Proud, it is Not Rude, it is Not Self- Seeking, it is Not easily Angered, it keeps No record of Wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the Truth. It always Protects, always Trusts, always Hopes, always Perseveres. Love Never Fails.
If I want to understand this love that has always been present around me, and within me then I must become; patient, self-less, kind, humble, hopeful and courageous.
The more I kill my tendencies to be selfish, hateful, rude and all the other vices I become more of my ideal self which is Love and which is the essence of the Creator himself.

Break-up habits and stomach cramps

I woke up this morning with a sickening feeling,  I had a nightmare in which I had a very bad grade in my semester results. So I woke up said a little prayer and went online to check my results and lo and behold I saw a little C+ perched under a course called Practicals in Psychology. How do I always  feel when something terrible is about to happen? Do I have clairvoyant skills?
To tell the truth this sickening feeling in my stomach has been existant for about two weeks now, it left for a few days and now its back because of this silly grade. It was as if the universe was determined to give me a hard week.
I broke up with my boyfriend of 2 years....
It was one of the hardest things I have ever done. I love him, I think he is the perfect soulmate for me yet I have a 'but' I can´t shake off. I don´t like the way we communicated(1st but). In my opinion it became to mechanical and monotonous the last few months, it was as if we were each doing it because it was recquired of us. Also, we saw ourselves less and less. He become more like a friend or even an acquaintance.(2nd but)
I thought about how to break it to him without hurting his feelings or breaking mine, spent weeks thinking about it, praying about it and ignoring it. All the while I knew it was impending.
I asked whether we could meet and talk but it wasn´t possible because of his work schedule (3rd but) so we finally decided to talk over the phone which I must say I didnt quite like.  We talked for an hour, I said sorry if I ever hurt him and even asked him to tell me what three things I should change about my character and if he had any ideas on how to make this relationship work. He said ' the decision is yours whatever you decide I am fine with it' that he had made himself psychologically prepared for either way ; whether we continued together or broke up. At one point my ex said he was going to delete the first love message I sent to him. I asked 'why?' He said is a way of moving on and getting himself together. Those words pierced my heart.
 The conversation ended with him saying ' Adom if you are done I will like to go to bed now'.
After a few days of losing my appetite , having insomnia and doubting my decision. A question came to my mind. Why do people after breaking up burn pictures of their patners and destroy everything that proves that they once had a love relationship? In my opinion that is ungratefullness and denial. I decided I wont throw or destroy anything I will put everything in a box and keep it safe. Those 2 years where not wasted,it has formed who I am now. I have a learnt alot form him, I have learnt what it is to fall in love and get hurt. These processes are all part of life. Why erase them? Who knows what can happen in a few years?

Later was going through BBC's website and saw a story of a woman photographer who received a letter from her ex- announcing their break up. She didn't know how to react to it and asked friends to read it and explain it to her. She took pictures of their reactions whilst the read the letter and it is now an exposition portaying human feelings.Her break up later ended with Take care of yourself. I wish my break up conversation ended with 'Take care of yourself'.
N.B check these links
original letter:  http://elizacoleman.blogspot.com/2009/07/random-acts-of-creativity.html
Story : http://virtualwallworld.blogspot.com/2011/12/sophie-calle-take-care-of-yourself.html